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The Fear Of Life And Death

Posted by Roshan on April 27, 2010 at 7:05 AM Comments comments (0)

Death wanders through our lives at will, sweet Death Is busy with each intake of our breath. Why do you fear her? Lo, her laughing face All rosy with the light of jocund grace ! A kind and lovely maiden culling flowers In a sweet garden fresh with vernal showers, This is the thing you fear, young portress bright Who opens to our souls the worlds of light. Is it because the twisted stem must feel Pain when the tenderest hands its glory steal? Is it because the flowerless stalk droops dull And ghastly now that was so beautiful ? Or is it the opening portal's horrid jar That shakes you, feeble souls of courage bare? Death is but changing of our robes to wait In wedding garments at the Eternal's gate.

I was dead

Posted by Roshan on April 27, 2010 at 7:02 AM Comments comments (0)

i was dead i came alive i was tears i became laughter all because of love when it arrived my temporal life from then on changed to eternal love said to me you are not crazy enough you don't fit this house i went and became crazy crazy enough to be in chains love said you are not intoxicated enough you don't fit the group i went and got drunk drunk enough to overflow with light-headedness love said you are still too clever filled with imagination and skepticism i went and became gullible and in fright pulled away from it all love said you are a candle attracting everyone gathering every one around you i am no more a candle spreading light i gather no more crowds and like smoke i am all scattered now love said you are a teacher you are a head and for everyone you are a leader i am no more not a teacher not a leader just a servant to your wishes love said you already have your own wings i will not give you more feathers and then my heart pulled itself apart and filled to the brim with a new light overflowed with fresh life now even the heavens are thankful that because of love i have become the giver of light..................

Avoid Drugs

Posted by Roshan on November 21, 2009 at 12:16 PM Comments comments (0)

When i was alone,you were my rotten seeds and sharp needle he killing me softly

I've been the addicted of you.

you Never said that I spoilt you.

spoilt brat gave company to me they also became your hunt,

we are in the stage that we can't leaven fulfill our desire if we will

fulfill our desire than we cant survive.

I'm not insanse but i knew you are the slow poision

you made me worthless where we cant think anything except you

to fullfill quick circulation of my blood cells.

Heart beat faster,loss of immunity,Asthma are what we suffer

now syrinze we no-more pefer.

Now i hate my life drugs is my choice i'm blind hope you don't mind.

Black cloud around myeyes,made me feeling as i'm end.

I was the man who can do every thing but i became the worst who have

no any other options except realize.

Lastly i wanna say my companies avoid it,enjoy the real joy of life

coz it let you die.

So everybody let'sRock,

Avoid Drugs.





I Am The One

Posted by Roshan on October 9, 2009 at 2:00 AM Comments comments (0)

I am the one who walks with no sound

who creepies when your around

I am the one who watches you sleeping

the one with no blinking

I am the one that gives you that feeling

the one watching you without you seeing

I am the one who you can not see at night

the one who gives you a fright

Who am I, what am I, you want you know

the one who comes and steals your soul

Who comes and takes you away

even though you want to stay

I am Death, as you see

and you are next to be


Posted by Roshan on October 9, 2009 at 1:56 AM Comments comments (0)

Evil surrounds you

You can't see your stalkers

But know, nonetheless, they are there.

You flee,

They pursue you through mazes of mirrors that don't seem to lead anywhere.

Through field and forest, now snow, and now fire, you run-

But they're still close behind

Like shadows relentless, they draw ever nearer

And soon, you will run out of time.

Back into the maze!

Down a hall of reflections you see the end,

Open the door,

And realize now that

There is no way out.

You're back where you started before.

Too tired to run, you can't go any farther;

You know that you're going to die.

But as soon as you think it you see that you're dreaming

And, startled, you open your eyes.

At first, you see nothing but infinite blackness

You swallow, too frightened to scream.

Then shapes begin forming,

Familiar surroundings reminding you:

Only a dream.

Your heartbeat is slowing,

You sigh and relax,

The battle is over-

You've won.

"But you never awakened," an eerie voice whispers, "the nightmare has only begun.


Posted by Roshan on October 9, 2009 at 1:49 AM Comments comments (0)

Darkness falls across the land The midnite hour is close at hand Creatures crawl in search of blood To terrorize y'awl's neighbourhood And whosoever shall be found Without the soul for getting down Must stand and face the hounds of hell And rot inside a corpse's shell The foulest stench is in the air The funk of forty thousand years And grizzy ghouls from every tomb Are closing in to seal your doom And though you fight to stay alive Your body starts to shiver For no mere mortal can resist The evil of the thriller .


Posted by Roshan on October 9, 2009 at 1:42 AM Comments comments (0)

Lying, thinking

Last night

How to find my soul a home

Where water is not thirsty

And bread loaf is not stone

I came up with one thing

And I don't believe I'm wrong

That nobody,

But nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone

Nobody, but nobody

Can make it out here alone.

There are some millionaires

With money they can't use

Their wives run round like banshees

Their children sing the blues

They've got expensive doctors

To cure their hearts of stone.

But nobody

No, nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone

Nobody, but nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Now if you listen closely

I'll tell you what I know

Storm clouds are gathering

The wind is gonna blow

The race of man is suffering

And I can hear the moan,

'Cause nobody,

But nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone

Nobody, but nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Confessions of a Drug Addict

Posted by Roshan on September 29, 2009 at 3:06 AM Comments comments (0)



Seething heroin is what i crave. 

When that next hunger strikes, 

For an intense high.

When that vermillion poka-dot sunlight washes over 


And the butterflies come and play in curly, orange grass. 

The dosages get higher and higher.

As does the risk of my death.

When will my wirling insanity stop. 

So i won't be this sick lonely soul. 

Now I sit alone, in death's alley. 

Waiting to be raped for the last time.


A Time

Posted by Roshan on September 29, 2009 at 3:00 AM Comments comments (1)



There was a time

When I thought you were for me.

I saw no flaws in my choice;

I guess I didn't see.

You didn't treat me nicely

Despite how I treated you.

I cared for you, I loved you

And that you even knew.

I kept telling myself

That you could change your ways.

But you proved me wrong

Every single day.

Suddenly its all black, I can't remember

And I wake up curled up under my cover



diffrent ways

Posted by Roshan on September 29, 2009 at 2:55 AM Comments comments (0)

For all those of you in “love” heres the truth..your love will die. And when it does.. it will take you with it. Take you to a place where you’d never EVER wanna go to.

So all you love birds! Get real.. really.. get real before reality hits you.

Al you men who think you’ve found the chick you’d always wanna be with.. look again.. she’s probably screwing someone behind your back.. and all you smart women happy with their men.. just check and see.. your guy may have left his number on my blog sometime.

Self Pity?! Hah.. not really.. only that reality is dusturbing. It has shaken me by the roots.

I dont really wanna end myself cuz i’ve lost and i feel dejected.. its more like saying.. what the heck! I dont fucking wanna live this crappy life no more! Just cant muster the courage to plug in the full stop.



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